Our lives are never more secure than when they are abandoned to God.
Revelation of Jesus’ Reward
24 Mark 8:34; Luke 9:23; [Acts 14:22; 2 Cor. 4:10, 11; 1 Thess. 3:3; 2 Tim. 3:12]
">vThen Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and [1 Pet. 2:21] ">wfollow Me. 25 For Luke 17:33; John 12:25 ">xwhoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. 26 For what Luke 12:20, 21 "> yprofit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or Ps. 49:7, 8 ">zwhat will a man give in exchange for his soul?The Prophecy of the Second Coming
27 For Matt. 26:64; Mark 8:38; Luke 9:26 ">athe Son of Man will come in the glory of His Father [Dan. 7:10]; Zech. 14:5 ">bwith His angels, Job 34:11; Ps. 62:12; Prov. 24:12; Rom. 2:6; 2 Cor. 5:10; 1 Pet. 1:17; Rev. 2:23 ">cand then He will reward each according to his works. 28 Assuredly, I say to you, Mark 9:1; Luke 9:27; Acts 7:55, 56; Rev. 19:11 ">dthere are some standing here who shall not taste death till they see the Son of Man coming in His kingdom.”okay, coincidentally - which i choose to believe is God's will, i was reading the exact passage from mark during my QT yesterday. maybe this is a godly hint/clue or sign. okay sign sounds more natural. LOL. during this period of time, i really experienced the challenge in making the hardest prayer of the world. that is, God, yet not my will but Your will be done here, now. in my life. yeah, sometimes, to me. the options are obvious.. but God says no sometimes, it's not the worldly gains that i should be looking for in this time of my life, or better yet, any other time of my life. comparing the consequences and everything, though it's really tough, not to earn that extra income during the holidays, and to survive on bare minimum, knowing that im gonna spend alot during the hols. oh wells, but i believe God had something for me this season, probably, i have something big to offer to God too. oh wells, let time tell. for now, i'll just have to continue to trust. and not seek to save my life the way i planned it to be.
that's the prblem with human, i guess? lol or isit solely me? i have this tendency to plan really ahead, like what i want to do for the next few weeks of my life. and i like to see them filled, with fun activities with fun people. and then, my brain will run. i will start to plan what to wear on what occasions, where to go, what to eat. crazy isn't it. it's really tough not to do it. cuz that's the only thing that makes me secure. like i HAVE to plan, you see. LOL. yeah, so many times, while lying on my bed, though im drop dead tired already, i would still let my mind drift to what to wear to school tomorrow, should i go to school tml, all this useless and insignificant thoughts. but mind you, they could distract me for up to one or two hours. that's when insomnia comes in. hahaha and to craig david, i guess you're wrong.
insomnia doesnt happen when you can't sleep when someone's not around. insomnia's you cant sleep even if the person's around. hahahaha
so your song should go
Because i can't sleep EVEN IF you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (maybe you can)
Oh i stay up EVEN IF you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
and yes, i thought of this during one of the sleepless nights too. lol damn low i know. LOL it entertained me for quite abit. lolol. oh wells, enough crapp. just sharing a few thoughts that i had about myself and my personal habits. unhealthy or healthy it may seem. but i need to kick it. the heart is deceitful, we gotta guard our heart, but then again, our mind is so powerful that it produces and influences our every thought and action. that's when i need to surrender more to God.
2nd hardest prayer to make
let my thought be pleasing in Your eyes.
Amen
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