Woah. I think God just brought me through a season of real lows and now everything's looking a bit better. But of cause, I don't want my mood to be determined by my circumstances because God is my joy.. but truth be told.. I guess I've been holding myself together for quite some time as much as I can. Talking about it makes me sad. So sad that I won't stop crying. And that makes me tired and eventually inefficient for the things that I'm supposed to do. Ie ministry.. studies.. Netball. I've went many days lacking sleep. Partly because I can't. Partly because I really have no time. I felt the heat burning all around me. Everything is shouting to me. Do this! Do that! Come on liting spare more time. There's soo much to do. And I'm amazed at how God brought me through. He's always there for me. And He knows me. And my weaknesses. He knows that I've been losing faith in the situation. Ppl are leaving, ppl can't be bothered to care more. Nobody's looking at the big picture. Everyone can only see themselves.. which was really draining. I wouldn't dare say I did the best job in loving them. And being a salt and light to them because there're times that I've really gotten super pissed and raged at them as well. But I think I really wanna thank God for reminding me to keep the faith. From the beginning, when I haven't been allocated my mods. I had a stubborn faith that God will make it work.. I mean judging but situation as well?! I'm graduating leh. God, You will give it to me right? I was disheartened when the appeal took quite some time. But something within me told me to ask and I'll receive. In the end, the stubborn faith worked out.. ohnono, I mean God worked!! Hahaa He had mercy on me and gave my mods to me (which I'm struggling to juggle now)

So from that incident on, God told me that it's the same Him that's working. So I can have the same stubborn faith no matter what I'm praying for. Be it for my mom, my family, my future or my career.. hmm, haha sounds politically correct.. but ohman. When Moe didn't reply my email and all my other friends had gotten them, that REALLY SUCKED. I wonder why God made me had all these passions and dreams for.. I wonder why He made me come to NUS and in the end not giving me a chance to try for teaching. I began to doubt.. then He replied me by saying He knows all these passions and dreams that I have. And He won't forget them. He wants the best for me, so if I'm made for this what makes me think that He won't give it to me.. woahh I was blown away. So I told God that I will keep the faith again. And I will keep the faith for the situation in my house no matter how tough things gets because He's the one who is watching over us. And praise the Lord because my mom's health report is good. There's nothing wrong with her!! :) the doc gave her meds to sleep better at night. And I'm praying that things will get better from here.. And I've been scheduled a Moe interview!!  :) although nothing is confirmed, but I really take heart that I did this whole thing with Him. And now I'm even more assured that He is for me and He really knows me and wants the best for me.

I hope this post encouraged you a lil, and I'm looking forward to even more testimonies to glorify Him. :)

In good times or bad times, there's only one thing we need to do. Have faith, my friend.

P.s. thanks for those who always showed concern. Appreciate it deep deep in my heart. :)