Reading a book
about surrendering. It’s a book about paradoxes. Barely one chapter into the
book, the author writes about true strength being found in weaknesses. And you
can only stop when you realized that you can’t stop. Things that challenges how
we’ve perceived this world to begin with.
I could almost
always relate to him, he grew up pretty much like me. And he pinpointed out the
stuffs that I thought… I never had to deal with? I never knew I was dealing
with shame, that’s why I never thought highly of myself before. I never knew
the lack of love in the environment I grew up in had such a big impact on me,
until I read this book. And also, until I really sit down and think about how I’ve
treating the people around me and how I’ve really thought about myself.
Hmm, I’m amazed at
those who saw who I really am, yet chose to stick by me willingly. I’m thankful
yet at the same time fearful. And God You’re one of them, and probably the most
important of them. It kills me to know that I’m still such a mess even after so
long. Rage and anger is still something that I couldn’t control. But, I shouldn’t
be the one that’s controlling them. You should be the one.
There’s so many
things I want to say, but I don’t know how to pen them down properly. Lol. But I
realized reading really liberates me, and I aim to finish reading the
Christianity rack in Bedok library. Haha, have been going there for the past
two weeks. Hopefully, I can do it!
Okay, random post. But
yeah. Hehe.
Share with you guys
something funny, today at kinders we asked the kids.
So, where do milk
come from?
COW!!! COW!!!
CCCCOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! (you know the kids. Haha)
Okay, very smart! So
where do coffee come from?
(silence) (murmurs
of weird answers haha) FOOD COURT
HAHAHAHAHA I ALMOST
PENG-ED. But it’s seriously funny. First world kids. Coffee comes from coffee
beans J