Continuing the story..

Being a girl, she subconsciously let her emotions take control sometimes. Cause we can’t compartmentalize like guys do. But she’s learning how to. Especially after the talk, guess they were the happiest when they were really friends, when they sought to understand and care for each other in their best interest as friends. When each other’s presence still bring delight to the other’s life.

Guess she got mixed up along the way, she should have known that he’s like this to everybody. And she should have remembered all the times that they cleared up stuffs between them, what he said and where his stand was. How did she fall this time? She never had such problems before. Cause she chose to be vulnerable this time round. So much that she could only see herself sometimes. That she forgot about the little things that he did that showed that he cares as well. That she forgot that he really treats her as a good friend, that whatever she said may hurt him too.

She screwed up. He doesn’t love her, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care for her. Ultimately, much as she always claimed to put him before herself. I guess she failed at this part. Everybody has different expressions of love/care. And for her it’s worse, because she’s so bad at expressing all the time. She hates herself like that, sometimes she wishes that she could cut her brain up and let people in so people can see what she is coming from.

So, I don’t know how to end this, cause her life haven’t ended yet. Haha. She is now clearing the mess that she has created or has unknowingly stepped into. Pray that everything would go well. Pray that God would intervene and restore…