okay i know im on bitch mode now, and i'm gonna write whatever stuffs that im feeling, with nothing holding me back
i know that i may, or not will, regret whatever i've typed here. but heck it, i just want to shout out whatever feelings i have inside my messy or whatever you called it, irritated/messed up heart right now..

and yes, if you're wondering, i am and will be responsible for whatever's being posted up heer on MY blog. thankyou very nais.


oh wells, now that im 20 now. having to interact with guys for the past probably say 10 years of my life, as in im counting from when im sensible, and i can differentiate whether they are really stupid or trying to be stupid, i am seriously confused, bewildered and often irritated with the actions of some guys in my lives. some PARTICULARLY i would say..


i know, God made you guys this way. so damned ego that you want to win in everything that YOU do, everything YOU can lay a hand on right?! i know i know.. this is something inborn in you guys, there is nothing you can do about it... what's so wrong about having a competitive spirit? what's so wrong about trying to do your best to win? what's so wrong about winning when you can win, it's natural right? LOL right.


and im telling you now that i totally cant stand this sky high ego ANYMORE. and im telling you now that ME. YU LITING, has an ego as well. i cant take it lying down when you don't listen to me when i'm obviously right. i can't take it lying down when you think that you're always right. i can't take it lying down that because im a GIRL, you don't give a shit about how i feel/how i think/ or what i say! i can't take it lying down when you try to pick a fight with me whenever i just stepped into MY house! and i can't take it lying down when you always zoom in on my lil mistake and keep repeating it to remind me how shameful that little mistake could be. but who doesn't make mistakes right? hello, i try to rational and reasonable, for most of the time, until you irritate me ttm, to an extent that my threshold is severely tested, u don't know what ure asking for. haha, okay im not threatening anybody here. and i wont resort to violence obviously, just that. i'd regard you as a very......... ego person in my life. and yes i would try to avoid you as much as possible. so, if u find me not talkg to you as much as before, probably this is something that caused our friendship to fall apart.

and im not saying this is totally your fault, cuz there may be some people out there who is pateient enough for this, or some people who doesn't see it as a problem at all. but not me, thank you very nais. and i know, this is my sever pet peeve, and im trying to change too. okay, im trying to make conscious efforts, but somehow. i don't know, it never works. lol.


and i know you guys relate to each other by constant poking, teasing and whatever tactics. lol, but just to tell you, sometimes i cant understand it and i seriously do not want to be a victim of it. yeah, if guys can take it. do it to guys, dun do it on me. i dun like it. at all. time to up discernment plus sensitivity. lol. okay im beginning to sound very fierce i know. arghs..

okay this shall be an incomplete post, cuz im not that angry anymore and i don't know how to end this. LOL. just wana share this emotions within me, and of course this newfound hatred of my male counterparts. and i hope i won't get judged for posting it up. oh wells, im so over being someone else im not. lol. okay bye.



oh yah, on a sidenote, i do realise how irritating girls can get too. ie girls who scream for no good reason and girls who are ever-so-determined to hit guys. (rolls eyes) so this is not just a post to attack guys, if i have the time and inspiration i could do up one for girls too. lol no worries about that! :)