As we await our Savior’s return, let us keep on praying, working, and watching, while “looking for the blessed hope”—our only hope for this world. — Richard De Haan

I've probably been so self-centered and obsessed in my own problems that I fail to see the fact that I have greater things to do. That I have God to do life togetehr with me, not against me. Hai, how fast humans could forget about the power of God. Sorry :/ QT this days have been about keeping watch, and living on the edge for Jesus. Something that I've almost been contemplating of giving up for the past few weeks. I thought to myself, there's so many people out there that's not in church but says that they believe in Jesus. There's so many Christians who are in church but aren't serving as hard(okay, I don't serve very hard either. Just in case you get the wrong idea. And I do recognise that my friends are all serving very hard. Very very spiritual people. LOL.) But when you're jaded, you tend to think that you've given your all to God and it never seems enough. And you're too tired to give even more already. But no, not like that. I got a hit on the head today. I don't look at others. As in, I don't compare myself to others. Everyday have different standards, everybody have different timings that they do different things. And most importantly, everybody have different lives to lead. Do I really want to measure myself against their standard? It doesn't affect them, but if I do it as well. I'm sure sure I'll be pretty affected. Oh wells, but humans tend to look sideways rather than upwards. And, I'm soooo human. Sooooo human that i don't think think I can finish this Christianity walk sometimes. But God came to save who? Humans................. hahahahahah I've got nowhere to run man. So, sorry God if i left You aside sometimes. And stuffed myself with the rubbish stuf of the world. I shall repent and do my best not to fall into it anymore. Yeah, and I should stop thinking that NUS is not the school for me. Since You've already put me here, there's certainly something good that's gonna turn out from here. I sincerely want to believe in that. Grow my faithhhhhhhhhhhh. And i know that it's really by Your grace that I'm in NUS, couldn't have done it on my own. Oh wells, teach me how to love every circumstances with You. To make the world a better place, we all have to complain lesser right? LOL. Okay, I try. Really. I realised I complain alot recently. Okay, shall stop it. :) Okay real tired alr. Nights.