liting feels relieved that her major midterms are down
but liting is still sian that she has science of music to handle!

arghhhhh. nvm. i shall pull up my swocks and do my best
and yes yes. TAY YINLING. ALLLL THE BETS TO YOU TML K. I'VE PRAYED FOR YOU AND MAY THE LROD BLESS YOU! this would be a turning point. and a good one, i have faith in that :) and i'll call you at 930am tml to check on you (im blogging thsi so that it's a promise to myself) WITH TONS OF LOVE FROM JESUS AND TONS OF FAITH IN JESUS, YOU'RE SO GONNA MAKE IT. :)


btw, hahaha Alevels results aside, i realised why i'm such an unpopular girl alr. LOL.. i was reading through my sec2 blog again, which im never gonna disclose it to anyone anymore.. AND WTH WAS I THINKING OF? HAHAHAH WHY AM I SPEAKING THAT WAY. GOD, THAT'S A RETARD BLOGGING. i seriously want to slap myself for that. hahaha. and looking back, much as i realized (God answered your prayers right) that i'm a very disgusting person LOL. i realized i have certain root issues to handle with. though i've written them quite vaguely in the immature posts, i knew exactly what i was talking about. it was always the struggle of my life. but no, not anymore. i'm not gonna let myself sink in anymore. i'm gonna stand up and walk out of it. and maybe this time, i sholdnt be so vague anymore so that i can twist and turn my words and lie to myself that im not talking about it. OKAY LITING. (this takes alot of courage) 7 years is more than enough! okay. now that it's said and done. i dun care what's gonna happen anymore, i'm just gonna place all my faith and whatever puny mustard seed trust i can place in Jesus. i'm throwing it all away alr. whoever that reads this, and whoever that bothers. i just want to lead a decent and a God-pleasing life. i'm not gonna let memories take over God's place in my mind. and i'm definitely not going to let them take up my time and efforts. God's plan is the life i wana lead, it's God's will that i wana live out. and not whatever that goes through my head when im travelling from bedok to nus. all those nonsensical and just-a-waste-of-time passing thoughts. im gonan reclaim my mind, satan. get away from me.. lol, ure tempting me to use not-so-nice words but im gonna hold it because that would anger God. lol..
alrights. a load off my chest. believe me, that had been in my journal for hella long and it never exactly happened. so if ure wondering why i posted it up. it's because i really wana take control again. no ulterior motives. definitely not. *double checked my heart*.. oay.. another area i realised was my inconfidence or perhaps insecurities in my incapabilities on court.. i know im not the best player, and perhaps would never be the best player. so whenever i go on court, i just pray for strength to do my best and God to belss with me with a good game. and yes sometimes it's good sometimes it's bad. but God is good all the time.. and i'll continue to pray before stepping on court everytime. cuz i believe that's the only assurance for me to do well.. i know i dun have the qualities to be a ultimate player. but i have a passion and i'll continue playing. of course i do envy people who are naturally better at it than me. but oh wells, liting gotta learn to accept the fact sometimes and my talents are elsewhere. but, i'll still work hard. and see how long i can continue playing for my passion. lol..

okay this is a relatively nromal post right. not emo not nothing right. lolol, dun wana be blogging just because im down or what. oh wells. and God i look forward to a brand new day with You tml. and yes thanks for going through my midterms with me. whatever it is, that was what i could have offered at this pt of time. may not be the best.. but. well, i trust You can make the best out of it. but if You can't its okay. i just gotta try harder right?? i get jaded sometimes, so pls give me strength. and yes i do get
distracted easily.. so please get MR SA TAN away from. lol..

and i also realised that im a social butterfly (zomg!) hahahahhahaha. NO.. i shall not as irritating as those who goes around socialising and waste the group's time. I SHALL NOT CONFORM! i shall be my zainv


OKAY BYE!