and as we know, things dont really go our way.. much as we really want it. cuz God has a greater plan for us. this is a fact that many of us know.. but how many of us can actually swallow and accept it with total faith and obedience and of course, submissiveness. if you can, i think that's really great. and im happy for you :) cuz i think there's certainly some particular area of our lives that we feel that God has neglected us, or God has let us down.. oh wells, i think He has a reason for making it ll happen. and things will always fall into place as we follow and seek Him. but some people, may not have enough strength to last the race. (i can totally understand why, cuz we're fallible =/ and im not sahying that i have the strength... hai, i hope you guys get what im trying to say..) hai. i dun blame it on anyone cuz i believe this is God's plans as well. but i pray that we wouldn't measure who God is according to circumstances. no matter how jaded you are, or yu think how jaded He had made you. He is still the God who loves us and wants the best for all of us. and i can totally understand your struggles, cuz we're all human. there are times when i feel that God is not doing His work in my life too. yeah, im not trying to sound mega spiritual by typing this all out. im typing this as a reminder to myself too. like what this life means to me. and what this life means to God. i have a covenant to finish this race with Him as well. if i can say this here now, i can say this to myself when im going through tough times too. so yeah, hmm, whatever it is. never close up your heart against God. im not gonna tell anyone to have faith, and just trust. cuz it's not gonna help him/her. but this is the only helpful advice i can give so far without sounding lame and useless. really, never harden your heart against God. think of how far He had brought you through. this time, it may not have worked out the way you wanted it to be. but, well. think of the times thngs had really went your way. because He loves you, He allows things to go Your way. and when things doesnt, that's when He loves You even more. cause He wants you to grow. and become more and more like Him. to be someone refined by tests......


okay. jiayou okay. i'll be praying.