There’s no substitute for being real.


i've always thought being real is easy, ever since i became a believer, all the more i tried to be real to every single person i know. i say how i feel, i do what i want to do. with tact(i hope), of course. but, now, this strength (i presume) has became a constant struggle of mine. sometimes, i wish i'm one of those 做作鬼 (fakers) (p.s totally not trying to imply anything else) probably when i cry they would think that im pitiful, when im sad they would protect me. when im down, they would notice it straightaway. when im weak, i don't have to settle other people's problems. LOL. okay im not saying other people's problems is a burden k. just that, sometimes, when the timing is not right. it just feel that.................. okay i just feel that. okay okay. i would feel that maybe its a burden for that puny second. and probably a lil neglected. BUT BUT eh haha dun let this stop you from sharing with me k. im being real here.. :/ oh wells, maybe i need to share my life abit more too. if not who knows what im thinking about. but. ahh. i have alot of what ifs in my head now. God, wouldnt You bring me back home so i don't have to go through this. lol. im definitely a Jonah. i wish i can never get outta that big fish yo. (foolish thinking, i know).


okay off to sleep. and i really dont wana fall asleep in lectures. not because i wana look stealthy and cool. but i really wana do my part well. let my actions show it man. LITING DUN FALL ASLEEP TML. SLAP YOURSELF IF U FALL ASLEEP. okay.. nights world. if you're reading this. have a good rest tonight. LOL. (since when did i become so personal......................) :)