okay. out of my busy schedule. i managed to squeeze some time out for this entry.

actually. i have alot to say but i seriously have no idea how to put them into words.. sometimes, it comes to me as if God has forgotten about me. what i've done, what i've 'sacrificed' for the kingdom. but that day something struck me. i took a look at my planner. and all i can say that.......... it's really all filled up, every single page of it. from morning to night for some days even. now i ask myself, have i forget about God? i think so. =/ unfortunately to say.. now that i've moved on, maybe i've let God played a smaller role in my role. which cannot be the way. im trying to find my way back, but. actually, i dun have to try. so long as i have back the desire to want to go back to my old ways ( which is suprisingly the better ways for my life), i can actually do so without any problems. as i've learnt, desire doesnt just drop from the sky lydat, so pls, God.. ignite it within me again.



fasting and praying seems like the best solution to this. but it's really going to take more than me to complete it. but i guess, that's the only solution now. maybe i should just give it a shot. let me have the faith to say it here, i shall continue this journey on earth with God all the way.