Today I went to a few places. Places that I usually don’t go. Places that even if I had the money, I couldn’t go to. Places that I’ve been dying to go.

Met my dad again after my paper today, he offered to send me home but I have to go to work with him. So, I thought why not? I can study on the lorry anyways. So he came and picked me up from school and we went to Sentosa to collect the mud/soil/sand whatever you call it. Those sandy materials you need for building buildings. (LOL, mega weird sentence structure, but whatever~) haha. At first I tried studying abit. But we started random talking. Like, wahh you’re in university already. You know, parent-kids convo, never failed to revolve around such topics. But I guess it’s quite true. I never expect myself to be in university. If we extrapolate the potential of a child by her parents’ gifting and talents, I’m quite sure I’ll be at the bottom of the society (pretty much). And I guess, I’m the epitome of God’s grace. If not for Him, where will I be? Dad keeps ranting that he cannot believe he actually have a daughter like this. Like, where did I get all my “brain” from (okay I know I’m not vv smart….)

There’s no high flyers in my family anyways. Other than one or two anomalies, and we’re all God’s grace. And we’re here to disprove that only educated and smart parents are capable of having children who can do (fairly) well in the society. Haha. The point is not that I’m good or what here, the point is that I really thank God for bringing me here. And I’ll do my best to do whatever to give them the life that they’ve been missing out all these while.

And yes, we were talking about sentosa! LOL. This whole trip was like a walk down memory lane. I felt like a kid all over again, sitting beside dad on the lorry. The scrambling up the high lorry, the oh-so-familiar bumpy rides, the super slow speed that we’re travelling on the expressways. Haha. It was nostalgic. And pretty emotional at times. Went near Sentosa cove there to pick up the sand, Dad asked me to pick a house there since he’s the one that’s ‘building’ it. LOL. Nonsense much, but yeah funny guy. And I’m really amazed at the wealth inequity amongst the people in Singapore. When will I ever get to buy a house at sentosa cove?! Like with the seaview and the yachts floating around my apartment. Ohwells, thank God that I don’t even have a desire to live so deep in a remote area. The view was breathtaking, like everything just looked so beautiful. Pretty, designed buildings here and there. Yachts.. they just make you feel so up there. Lol. Then we went to TUAS (!!) to release the sand. It was a long and bumpy ride again. But I love it! Haha. And I really realized how big Singapore can get, we just kept driving and driving. But the road seemed endless. It’s like, we went to this vast piece of land with just soil, soil… and more soil. Haha my dad says that’s where you’ll release all the illegal immigrants too. LOL.

Nostalgic, nostalgic. I used to follow him and my ahgong around like this when I was younger too. They’d go and check out the progress of their work. And I’d just hang around with my bro. Sometiems, if we’re lucky, they playground would have already be built in the new condo or whatever then we’d sneak in to play. LOL. Then force them to get us ice cream and we’ll finish them in the lorry. Haha and bumped (up down up down) all the way back home. I really miss long rides like this, with long other plans in mind. Just spending the day (or even a few hours) with someone you really love can just be sooo therapeutic.

Dad sent me home after that, we had stupid convos again too. Haha. I guess I don’t really deserve such a loving dad for all the things I’ve done to him in the past. He slogged so hard every day just to make our lives better. And here I am wasting money at online shopping, buying stuffs that I don’t even need. Not that I’ve more or less kicked this bad habit, please don’t let it come back to me again. If it’s gonna take him one trip to make that amount of money, liting, seriously you gotta rethink where your money is going to. That’s not easy money siol.

When he was sending me back home, he said something epic. Haha. 20 years ago, I took this route. 20 years later, I’m still doing the same thing. But, 20 years. Everything, is not so much the same anymore? I used to be 1, now I’m going 21. This house isn’t his anymore, he has another one on his own. We aren’t cute little kids who are bugging them to buy us mountain bikes, we’re their children who are waiting to repay them for bringing us up now. 20 years……………

Then I reached home. Only to find the floor of my little room mopped nicely by my mom… haha. : )

But I will always thank God for giving me this life. It may not seem like a lot, may not seem very smooth. But I thank God for this journey anyways. It’s because I’ve been through the ‘worse’, I can cherish the ‘better’ better. Thank You Jesus. So what if others get to see beautiful sceneries from all over the world, I get to see things before they’re being built, and their process of being built. That’s, MORE SPECIAL THAN YOURS!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

Kidding! Thank You God, for making me who I am. Don’t let anything change me for the worse. I just want to grow to be so much more in You.

And oh yes! Thank You for the ppr today. And examHQ... and of course yvonne for putting me up! :)