finally have some time on my own at home, and some 14-hour sleep dat i totally neeeeed.

lol, its increasingly hard to wake up this days. like, i think if there's nothing important, i will just fossilized and sleep for.. 2days?! my back is aching, and i think its attached to my bed. LOL.. and i only have myself to blame for not cooling down properly after those IFG gamessssssssssssssssss.

woke at 11plus 12 today, jolting up from a bad dream. in that dream, someone discovered some undesirable stuff about me. woah, that feeling was crazy. much as it's a dream. everything felt so surreal suddenly. i think God incepted my dream.. telling me that He knows my everything, my every thought, my every desire. much as it's not being materialised into actions, sometimes, the thought itself is as good as the action. that the desire is still there, that they still do have the potential to come and haunt me all over again. but im strong, because God is strong. even if im weak, God is still strong. i'll never go down that path again. cuz true repentance is turning away from where you sinned, and instead of staying at right where you are. you change your direction and run towards God. let love and forgiveness fill my heart all over again.