tdy could have been worst day ever, but somehow i survived through.



it's quite.... i would say funny, and of course in a certain way i know God is in control. that He allowed me to see something today. that this is the final warning and i totally should not even consider going down this route. and yes i will not..


yeah it could have been me, if i tried, if i abandoned some of my values as well..if i push it abit harder... maybe, maybe it could have really been me. somehow, i didn't. i don't know why, and i don't know how. but i'm glad i didn't.. yes, i'm not going down that route, and i promise i won't back to the route that i came from. then this whole process would be a meaningless one, and in fact it could have worsen it. but, God, thanks for letting me see what i see, may not be what i want to see, or what i need to see. but since You allow it, it must have happened for a reason. so now that my eyes sees it, let my heart be able to embrace it. my turn would come soon. LOL..

so im starting everything anew, with new goals and motivations set in my mind and in my heart. let it stay this way... and let this new path bring about good changes in my life. one that stops struggling with the same-old-issue, and one that glorifies You above all.