okay from today, i have decided that i have enough of jokes. especially jokes played on me. okay maybe not that serious. okay, i can tell you the boundaries of the jokes you can play on me. u can say i have a short tongue, u can say that im fat, you can say that im funny(i'd prefer if you say that im cute, thanks) u can say that nonspiritual (unspiritual la ah, but dictionary bolds it, oh wells. yeah u can say that cuz it might not be untrue at that point of time.)


BUT, pls dun try to joke and say that im lian. okay, which part of me look lian?! i dun have straight rebonded hair and a curtain of bangs that covers half of my face. i dun speak with vulgarities as my punctuations. i dun even give anybody the finger. i dun have a tattoo. (okay, i have 5 piercings. but if that's enough to conclude that im 100% lian. hahaha, kudos to you) and im educated? i dun get into fights. so, tell me. where am i lian now?! i know, i may have a bad past. and im telling it straight into whoever that's reading this. that i just wana leave it behind. so stop reminding pls. you can only say it if u have a close relationship with me. that is, i know that you are really joking. and i dun mind that. so firstly, do i actually have a close relationship with you? can u not judge me when you say that im lian? ask yourself, do you actually mean it. half the time, you do, right? when i dye my hair a brighter shade, half the street begins shouting that liting is an ahlian, how do you think i feel? so, stop it. it will do everybody good.

i know i dun have the most friendly face on earth, but please dun conclude that im lian. im just given a face that looks kinda stern when im relaxed. well, i thank God for that too. oh yeah, and im more expressive when i talk too. when im happy, i show it by laughing hysterically. when im sad, i would cry uncontrollably. when im angry,of cuz i'd speak out for myself. okay, i know im beginning to sound like an emotional freak. trust me, im doing my best to keep it under control. that is, if you stop doing silly things like saying im the most fierce and violent girl you've ever seen on earth. did u see the part that im expressive? not just fierce? when im happy, i oso show it? when i like you, i oso show my appreciation to you directly? not just when im mad, i would bomb you with my angst? who ever sees that part of me? who ever. whoever? seriously. i know i know, this post is getting angsty again right? im not gonna care anymore. since whatever i do is always fierce and angsty and violent. (oh yes and lian) oh well. fine. i know it's normal to have stereotypes in your mind. it's totally humane to oversimplify things for the sake of convenience. so if you really treasure the friendship. know your limit alright? and we'll make it through :)