okay. i decided to revamp my blog a little but i cant seem to be find other blogskins so i'll (you too) have to make do with this first, yeah? so sorry. i know it's aligned to the left and it's rather hard to read. oh wells. any IT geeks out there willing to help me? :/

okay, time zooms (booms, shings)
im having my FINAL YEAR EXAMINATIONS in NUS right now.
God, it seems like yesterday was my first day of school. now i'm writing my life off in MPSH. oh well, God has a plan. it's all meant to be. LOL. im not trying to comfort myself. im only left with 2 more papers. 2 arts modules. hahah, it's been a million since i've lasted written a (decent) essay. may the Lord's wisdom and strength be with me. and it will. i believe. i may not be the smartest student in the world, like how everybody else IN the world deem it to be. i may not know how to solve the last 2 qns of MA1100. but that ain't gonna stop me from doing well for my other papers. okay, fine. i have low expectations. hahaha. my definition of doing well is lower than the norm. but still, i would like to thank God for His presence and peace within me during the exams. i panicked a little during econs and calculus. i could feel it. i could feel myself not knowing what to do. it was soooo scary. that hardly happens to me. i cannot imagine those out there who are doing the exam all by themselves. it must have been nightmare. you may say, im smart, i didnt fumble, not like you. oh well, hahaha good for you! it may not be exams that scares you (not how it had that effect on me). someday when it happens, im seriously not cursing anybody. i really pray that God's presence be come and be with him/her. it sucks to be alone. it sucks to know that you're alone! it sucks to know that there's no one else there for you. it sucks to know that everybody else knows that you're alone. SO. DONT BE! come over to the light. HAHA. and im serious.

after being in NUS, the frequency of words like 'lonely'/'alone' have been coming out of my mouth. lol, i hate it. it sucked. i always thought i could pull off the loner trick! LOL. i THINK im independent. like, i can complete tasks on my own. but seriously, i seriously dont believe i could spend 1 whole day on my own. like not talking to anybody. it drives me nuts. and i HAVE to talk. okay, im facing this part of myself now. i have to talk! thank God for always being there. and im so sorry that sometimes i chose not to talk to You! it's stupid i know. that i chose youtube over You. i chose facebook over You. and i blog about being lonely. lolol, dumbest girl ever right. okay God, im never alone because You're always there. i need to learn how not to be lonely! you're such a friend, surely You can teach me? :)

and well You did. for the past few days, the people in the exam HQ was especially welcoming and concerned! it was heartwarming to see how everybody showed love and care to one another. especially when we get together to pray. how the prayer warriors doesnt mind walking all the way to MPSH just to pray for the people who are having exams. big hearts, willing feet. seriously. how everybody noted down each other's exam timetable. how my shepherd kept calling me just to check that im on time for the paper. how yanlin called me at 7am just to wake me up. how bowen specially woke up at 7am just to morning call me. how guanzhen and eventia kept sending out encouraging messages. im not blind, nor deaf, nor heartless. this left a serious impact in my life. and i think this people are great! seriously, a simple sms could just make somebody's day. i hope mine did, whenever i text somebody. haha.

kat's bday celebration today also reminded me of how God had sent angels in my life right from the beginning of my NUS life. seriously. thank you and thank You! You know me best, what can i say. okay, off to sleep. <3