from the way u shook ur head, i know u thought it was a really wrong decision.
but i really wanted to play. i know that im not good enough. dats why ure reacting that way. it's okay. im just sad over how limited i can get.. and i understand that i couldnt blame anybody else for not being adequately trained.


sometimes im wondering why am i holding on so tightly to this desire. this thing that im not meant to do well or excel in. this is definitely not my sweet spot in life. and i know that very well. but i just enjoy playing it. enjoy being on court.. so what should i do.


if i choose to continue with it, i shall make the best out of it. i should give my best-est for it. and yes i think that'd be my decision. sorry for being so emotional today. 19 year-olds dun cry lydat. so sorry.