i have so much to say. but i seriously have no idea how to put it into words. work is alright.. just a few weird aunties who are super menopausal and scolded me for absolutely nothing. fine. lol =/ and having 4 out of 5 customers asking you whether there's any promotion going when there's apparently none is totally infuriating. how could a franchise be having a promotion but not publicising about it?! so, yeah, if u dont see anything means there's no discounts/no rebates/no promotion.and the 5th customer,please stop asking me if u can use the staff toilet when it is locked. and sorry, we really cannot lend you the key..
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okaaaaaaaaaaay that's about it. i shall not elaborate lest i get angry myself again. HAHA


alright. so, this few days. i've been making themes for the days. lol. i'm just too bored. cuz on sunday night while i was doing my QT. it struck me that tml (monday) would be a miracle day. so yup, indeed miracles happened. cuzby God's grace, i'm improving in my breaking..and i'm able to do a move that i cannot do in the first lesson! MIRACLE. hence i thought it's really cool, so i made a pact with God on monday night while doing my QT that tml (tuesday) would be 'God is real' day. and. OMG. lol you wont believe it. cuz i;ve been wanting to know how long it takes to eunos to tanjong pagar but i keep forgetting to check the time while i've reached both stations.so, on tuesday morning. something really cool happened. i was listening to music on the train, as usual. suddenly.... the music stopped. i was like. GOD!!! i'm listening to my music happily, why you stop?! lol. in the end, i realised that im at the eunos station alr. only by stopping my music would gain my attention to check my phone, which in turn, would allow me to check the time. so, i'm like. okaaaaaaaaaaay i get it. lol.. den when i reach tanjong pagar, guess what?! LOL. the music stopped again. right, and yes if God didnt make it stop i think i'd jolly well forget about checking the time and i'd be late for the pioneers meet. lol. so thank God. there goes my 'God is real' day. so wednesday was, 'God is beside me' day, LOL i know this themes are kinda lame. pardon me pls. so well, i think i was whining to God too much that i've really nothing to do at the shop that He called the auntie to send me to raffles place to deliver some cakes. LOL. :)

but ytd night, inn my QT, it struck me that the theme for today would be 'God-I'd-trust-in-You-no-matter-what' day. and, dang. my heart dealt with a serious blow today. so this part of the post is no longer be filled with haha's and lol anymore.

*i've edited this post. so it might sound totally unrelated, the front and the back part. but. well. just trying to let some air out.*

here goes the start of the rant.

i always wonder if im a bit too over-sensitive on my part? haha, actually, by asking this question i've already kinda answered the above. this is ......................................................................... i'm tired of being the one that's concerned with how people feels about certain things. i'm tired of making conversations with people who doesn't want to talk to me. i'm tired of playing the person who connects to people. i'm really tired of sharing my life experiences to keep people in the conversation. i'm tired of not getting any reactions........... i'm really sick and tired of it. i dun wana be the one getting hurt in the end. i dun wana be the one being unappreciated. i'm sick of standing there alone. being the one who waits for people. and being left there if every other person have stuffs to do. look, i really dun wan to do it anymore. i'm tired of observing people's reaction and accepting them for who they are. GOD, maybe i'm over-reacting or what. maybe i'm just too over-sensitive. maybe i'm just letting my thoughts run wild. maybe i shudden let this bother me at all. maybe.. maybe i shud go and sleep now.

God, only you understands.
thank You, cuz you're never tired.