Hi. 2009. my very first post of the year.

okay i just returned from caregroup. it was enjoyable, especially with all the experiences from S Africa that Shiwei is sharing with us. i never knew that place could be so happening. maybe i shall consider going there when i have the time and money. lol. yup. caregroup went on smoothly. everybody shared and have fun :) we wrote down our new year resolutions as well. lol.

so. here it goes.
firstly, obviously. i want to be a shepherd, i wana teach people and lead them to God's guidance and love. i know it's not going to be easy but i really want to do it for God! Amen. So, we need to REVIVE the MJ group. yes and it's gonna be done in Jesus' name.

secondly, i want to develop and refine my talents in my ministries. and most importantly, build up my knowledge on the word of God so that i can encourage people with God's words. of course, thsi in turn can boost the worship atmosphere of the group as well. :)

thirdly, i want to bring my family members closer to God. though i must admit that im truly very very very very disappointed with my brother. i still pray that God would step into this family. cuz i believe mere human strength cannot contain his actions anymore, and much less keep what's left of this family together. God, this family really need Your presence. it really needs You. cuz i seriously duno when would be the next occassion that he'd just go crazy again. but i promise You that i would nvr run away again. and yes. i will not hurt myself anymore. God, i know You hear my cries.

next, i want to be more giving. and i shall not spend whatever i have on food or online shopping. i must cultivate a habit of saving. so that i still have the ability to give more back to God.

lastly, i must watch my diet. not for a better figure. but for a better health, cuz my fitness is really dropping and i find myself taking in all the unhealthy food. so yeah, i dun wana get some cardiac heart disease at the age of 35. i really must watch my diet.

so God, these are my resolutions for 2009. i pray that they're aligned with your plan for me. and i pray that i would complete them with You. Amen.


looking back, 2008 have been a crazy year for me. big things happened. all the minor and major exams. and the death of my grandma. the crazy/hectic december that i've led. i cannot believe i've been through it all. thank You,God. all i have now is a weary but expectant heart God. please do Your work in me. and God, please heal me. cuz only Your love completes me. i need You more than ever. You're the God Almighty. Thank You, God.