PROMOS ARE REALLY COMING..
I KNOW I KNOW..
STOP TOKING ABOUT IT :(
and dun tell me ' if you know, den why arent doin anything? '
i am hor.. . . ? hor?
LOL
yeah my chem bonding notes is infront of me now
cuz i heard that thr'll be a 'test' tml.. better be prepared.. dun let mr cheng call my mother..
HAHA
NOW, they're really good friends..
during the parent-teacher meeting jus now, my mom complained that my attiude's really bad at home.
so, mr cheng kindly offered that whenever im not behaving well, she can always call him
-.-"
one more person kiping their eye on me........ GOSH. not that i'd do anything wrong.. but............. sian ah
and she told him that ive been going home late too.
haha not very late what. 8plus? 9 latest? or maybe 10
but.... im not doin anything wrong mah?=/
i jus dun lyk to go home lah
use comp she oso say
dun bathe she oso say
dun slp she oso say
HAIZ, i think whatever i do or dun do oso wrong..
WAHHHH VERY SIAN LEHHHHHHHHH.........
ARGHHHHHHHHHSSSSSS
my pms haben pass sia......
ahhh.. feel damn sian recently..
haojiemeisss ni zai na li? >.<
as i listen to all this stories that ppl are tellg me.
im really very disapponted and sian
gosh. why cant everybody jus be direct and truthful?!?!!?
is it that hard?
why am i feelin that everybody's damn fake suddenly
arghs
maybe my values are very different from them
i duno.. but some of this ppl happens to be my friends..
im so pissed, what can i do!??!
i nid a break!!!!
ahh
sorry
i guess i jus cannot take tis anymore
all this pent-up angst
it's killing me.
i get irritated over lil things recently. im really sorry........
i didnt mean to shout and scream. but it seems that u arent listenin to me.
maybe shouting and screaming wil get ur attention, but in the end u get angry with me.. and i'll get even madder at you.
the vicious cycle goes on.
i hate this.. mr cheng said that i didnt spare a thought for my mother.
but.... the truth is. did she spare a thought for me at all?
maybe she did
but she's doin it the wrong way..
or maybe. very deep down. i stiu kinda hate her. =/
sad to say.. i know i love her, ultimately..
but sumtimes the hatred within me controlled my actions even before i could think of how good she has been to me..
everytym i will be reminded of the times she screamed and shout at me..
how she threatened that she'd kill herself..
how she threw my bag outta the window.
how she drove me outta the house..
how she said im an unfillal daughter..
how she favours my bro over me..
how she broke up with my dad..
how she kip pestering me to call my dad for money..
how she always mess up my stuffs..
the list goes on..
i cant seem to remember the tyms when she woke up exceptionally early to iron my clothes.
how she do the laundry even when she's tired.
how much effort she put in to cook dinner for us.
how much she tries to scrimp and save just to get us into a good uni
how she'd rather work for one month straight jus for some OT pay
and the pain she went through by jus giving birth to me..
i know im more of a chore than a blessing.
maybe im feelin tis way cuz i hate myself
i cant forgive myself for not being able to forgive her..
i hate myself for always shouting at her
all the unpleasant stuff that ive said b4..
i wished i could take them back.
im so sorry.
i hope things would be better tml..
okay enough of all tis stuff. =/
tml got trg.... i hope it'll be a fruitful one.. haha
i'd better go study liao
i can hear my chem bonding notes' calling me
LOL
HERE I COME!
quote frm ms lai ' u and ur notes are ONE'
haha. all the notes. come love me!
>.< i guess im gg craaazy LOL
may tis thing be over soon!
BYE ALL
HAPPY MUGGING
GOD BLESS YOU!
<3
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