life's been pretty sian lately.
my big auntie had just passes away on the third day of CNY
and through this incident i found out that im really afraid of death.
i have no idea who's going to be the next one leaving me,
will it be................................
okok i shall not name anybody


though im not exactly very close with her, but i literally felt my heart sinking when my bro broke the news to me for about 3 days after her death.
we cant go and pay our last respects as she held her funeral in malaysia.
it's like.. i cant even see her for the last time.
suddenly, i recalled that she was the one who took care of my bro and i when we were young
and when my parents were stiu together, they went to indonesia
and she was the one who came to babysit us for the weeks that they were away
took us to school, play with us, and lived with us

i stiu rmb one incident is that during her stay with us, she had to wake us up for school every morning
and because i was too young then, i werent able to read the clock very well, so i took 730am, as 830am.. something lydat i cannot really rmb
so the stupid me went to wake them up, thinking that it was time for school already
so 3 of us walked to the PAP that my bro and i used to attend merrily only to realise that we were one hour early
so we spend our time by playing at the playground nearby.
i could tell that she was quite tired that morning but she stiu entertained us, and helped us with the swing and stuff
it may not seem smth very great sumbody else.
but it meant quite alot to me.
for she was diabetic and was quite sickly even when i was young.

usually, she stays in her house in Penang, and only during special occasions she will come to singapore to visit her children.
and whenever we're free we go to her house too.
now, i dun think i'll be able to do that for her 'husband' is the owner of that house now, and im not too sure what he is gona to do with it.
hopefully nothing evil..
but adults can be scary =x
there were some financial conflicts btwn him and my cousins after my 'da-gu's' death
intensifying the atmostphere further.. hai
i jus hope that she can rest in peace and everyone would get what is rightfully theirs eventually.


ah.. enough about that.. =(
anyways, im gona re-make my ezlink card tml
so excited about it! -.-"
hahahaha >.<
okay i think u guys have heard enough
gtg
bye