okay
here to blog.. haha
not exactly feelin very happy right now
abit sianz..
sumbody told me smth that set me thinking
is it me.. or isit the rest?
are we too lost in our world?
lolol i really duno
actually im not really affected by that
alot of ppl stiu hate me
bcuz of how i behave..
or bcuz of what kinda person i APPEAR to be infront of them..
seriously..
LISTEN
i dun give a shyt if u hate me to the core
i have my own frens
i love bein in my own world wif my own frens :)


i know im quite mean to certain ppl
ive tried to change.. but...
i duno if it works
u can hate me for that if you want
haha..


im just affected by the fact that..
ive really treat that sumone as a very gd fren..
but..
im not too sure about how he/she feel about it
probably ive always given him/her a hard tym
so maybe he/she's feelin too sick about it
but.. it's not really my fault..
or is it?
i duno.. i guess i couldnt not care about tis
cuz i kinda stiu regard him/her as a gd fren
maybe he/she stiu regards me as one too
but.. i think.. not lyk what we were anymore
so.. yeah..
give us a few years down the road
we'll forget about how he/she help me pull thru the darkest tyms of my life before
MAYBE,MAYBE NOT
i duno
but i hope tis wont happen to the g-ers

nvm.. it's okay
it's not anybody's fault
we all grow up..
people come and go
at least u came
stopped for a few years
den go
it's part and parcel of life..
ive came to accept it..
lol..
and maybe we shud stop havin the illusion that we both noe each other very well..
er.. nono
that u noe me very well
cuz tis few years
i've seriously not know anything about you
except for your name,height,weight,class,address
ive tried to not to blame you for not tellin me anything in depth
but i just cant help it but wonder why
probably i shudden hold you so close to my heart,
cuz i always expect that gd frens SHUD share EVERYTHING
maybe it's only my own childish thinking.. haha..
so it's alright..
dun probe anymur..
it doesnt make me feel better
probably being acquaintances would help.

tis dint happen suddenly.. ive been thinkin about it for a long time
haha.. kk im off
bye