the amazing race finale has revived the lunatic within me
i was practically screaming at my laptop whenever cheyne and megan was lagging behind
and i was moved/anxious/sad/disappointed to the extent of almost tearing for a couple of times within the 42min episode. zomg how crazy is that!?
lolol. when they finally won, ZOMG. i heaved a sigh of relief and i really thank God that the most deserving team claimed victory. it was as if i was there with them all along. 21 days 8 countries 1 million dollars. WOAHHHH...

secretly, i wish that i would able to join the show one day. (okay, not a secret anymore) it seems really fun. and really, this would allow you to know your partner a lot more. and yeah, make or break your friendship. wellll, it's a once in a lifetime experience. so it's gonna be worth it right.

after every team completed the race, i think they are just soooo happy and satisfied that they actually did complete the race. the 1 million dollars that they have been talking about the whole season doesnt really matter anymore. well, i guess this is gonna be what happens when we finally complete OUR race? the rewards and blessings that we expect in heaven will never beat the fact that we're actually in heaven. which im hopelessly looking forward to. lol, okay it's not a suicidal sign! watching the contestants fight so hard makes me wonder when was the last time i ever worked hard for something. work hard as in blood and sweat and tears. revision wasnt really counted. so probably i would say while sowing in mjc. which is almost 1 year ago? okay okay. alarm signnal is going off.. better start working hard again for the reason why we're put on this earth.

glad that i met lifeng for a movie today! had fun walking around orchard! God, i pray that You'd make this work! thank You in advance. then again, good job cheyne and megan. :D
EXAMS ARE OVER.
lololol. i duno what to feel. what to think. i shall leave it all aside. now, im back to the civillian life with nth to do for the day.
hahaha i woke up at 530pm today. totally unplanned. when will i ever not need an alarm to see daylight?!?!?! zomg.


well, i just pray that i would have a fruitful holiday!! brother elijah said to make full use of your holidays!

Ephesians 4:11-13 (New International Version)

¹¹It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, ¹²to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up ¹³until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.

1 Corinthians 12:28 (New International Version)

²⁸And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues.

Apostles are men who would complete God's work. They would do what Christ would do if He's on earth. I hope we can all see the importance of apostles tonight. :)

okay. i decided to revamp my blog a little but i cant seem to be find other blogskins so i'll (you too) have to make do with this first, yeah? so sorry. i know it's aligned to the left and it's rather hard to read. oh wells. any IT geeks out there willing to help me? :/

okay, time zooms (booms, shings)
im having my FINAL YEAR EXAMINATIONS in NUS right now.
God, it seems like yesterday was my first day of school. now i'm writing my life off in MPSH. oh well, God has a plan. it's all meant to be. LOL. im not trying to comfort myself. im only left with 2 more papers. 2 arts modules. hahah, it's been a million since i've lasted written a (decent) essay. may the Lord's wisdom and strength be with me. and it will. i believe. i may not be the smartest student in the world, like how everybody else IN the world deem it to be. i may not know how to solve the last 2 qns of MA1100. but that ain't gonna stop me from doing well for my other papers. okay, fine. i have low expectations. hahaha. my definition of doing well is lower than the norm. but still, i would like to thank God for His presence and peace within me during the exams. i panicked a little during econs and calculus. i could feel it. i could feel myself not knowing what to do. it was soooo scary. that hardly happens to me. i cannot imagine those out there who are doing the exam all by themselves. it must have been nightmare. you may say, im smart, i didnt fumble, not like you. oh well, hahaha good for you! it may not be exams that scares you (not how it had that effect on me). someday when it happens, im seriously not cursing anybody. i really pray that God's presence be come and be with him/her. it sucks to be alone. it sucks to know that you're alone! it sucks to know that there's no one else there for you. it sucks to know that everybody else knows that you're alone. SO. DONT BE! come over to the light. HAHA. and im serious.

after being in NUS, the frequency of words like 'lonely'/'alone' have been coming out of my mouth. lol, i hate it. it sucked. i always thought i could pull off the loner trick! LOL. i THINK im independent. like, i can complete tasks on my own. but seriously, i seriously dont believe i could spend 1 whole day on my own. like not talking to anybody. it drives me nuts. and i HAVE to talk. okay, im facing this part of myself now. i have to talk! thank God for always being there. and im so sorry that sometimes i chose not to talk to You! it's stupid i know. that i chose youtube over You. i chose facebook over You. and i blog about being lonely. lolol, dumbest girl ever right. okay God, im never alone because You're always there. i need to learn how not to be lonely! you're such a friend, surely You can teach me? :)

and well You did. for the past few days, the people in the exam HQ was especially welcoming and concerned! it was heartwarming to see how everybody showed love and care to one another. especially when we get together to pray. how the prayer warriors doesnt mind walking all the way to MPSH just to pray for the people who are having exams. big hearts, willing feet. seriously. how everybody noted down each other's exam timetable. how my shepherd kept calling me just to check that im on time for the paper. how yanlin called me at 7am just to wake me up. how bowen specially woke up at 7am just to morning call me. how guanzhen and eventia kept sending out encouraging messages. im not blind, nor deaf, nor heartless. this left a serious impact in my life. and i think this people are great! seriously, a simple sms could just make somebody's day. i hope mine did, whenever i text somebody. haha.

kat's bday celebration today also reminded me of how God had sent angels in my life right from the beginning of my NUS life. seriously. thank you and thank You! You know me best, what can i say. okay, off to sleep. <3
i haven seen my mom for about 3 days. as in, talkg to her and stuff. okok, fighting with her. but in a mother-and-daughter way. and she has not called me for 3 days!!! SHE DOESNT LOVE ME ANYMORE. hahahaha. totally madness. i missed her though. so im gonna sleep beside her now. nights! oh yeah, i haven seen my dad for a month? haha but im fine with tat. hahahha. he's gonna KILL meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i should be rejoicing at the 2 days of MC i have just gotten. but nah, i guess im stil going to school tml. lol. got some admin stuff to settle and MA1100 mid term. i'll just get it over and done with. and i need to hand in my calculus homework! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so much for being sick. irritating.

and i have finally gotten clear why i got sick! thanks to the poor air quality recently. seriously, i'd do anything to get a less-sensitive nose. when i was young, it was soo much worse. thank God asthma is no longer triggered anymore. :) but yeah. still i would like to pray for a normal nose. LOL. kk back to mugging. if not i'll be asleep. nights!
i've never been so hardworking in maintaining this dying blog.
probably this is the other thing i can do to get my head off the notes that are calling me.

when i was young, i always believe im meant to do something great in my life. it's like im called to be somebody powerful. but with every second that passes by, a little of my believes die inside. i though being somebody powerful was to be somebody in control. so all the leadership positions sounded real attractive to me. but sadly, i think God has it that way that i'm hardly entrusted with any. this broke my confidence more and more as i grow up. i felt more and more restricted. like i just cant be the person that i wanted to be.

until i found God, and He taught me something. if i want to have control, lose it to Him. that's when control really starts. to me, having control is not about being able to do what you want to do. but it's more of that you are able to reject what you don't want to do. i dont want to be a loser thinking about all the missed opportunities. i don't want to be dwelling in misery and missing out on even more again. this is the kind of control i want. i thank God that the 2 of us are doing a great job here. wait for His timing, and nothing can stop me from being the one He destined me to be.

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